Motivation and desire.
The emperor, and the beggar.
It is time for you to stop seeking outside yourself for that which would make you happy. Look inside.
There is a very famous Sufi story.
An emperor was coming out of his palace for his morning walk when he met a beggar He asked the beggar "What do you want? The beggar laughed and said, "You are asking as if you can fulfill my desire!"
The king was offended. He said, of course I can fulfill your desire. What is it? You just tell me." And the beggar said, "Think twice before you promise anything."
The beggar was no ordinary beggar, he was the emperor's past-life master. And he promised in that life, "I will come and try to wake you in your next life. This life you have missed, but I will come again." But the king had forgotten completely-who remembers past lives? So he insisted, "I will fulfill anything you ask. I am a very powerful emperor; what can you possibly desire that I can not give to you?"
The beggar said, "It is a very simple desire. You see this begging bowl? Can you fill it with something?
The emperor said, "of course!" He called one of his viziers and told him, "fill this man's begging bowl with money." The vizier went and got some money and poured it into the bowl...and it disappeared. And he poured more and more, and the moment he would pour it, it would disappear. And the begging bowl remained always empty.
The whole palace gathered. By and by the rumor went throughout the capital, and a huge crowd gathered . The prestige of the emperor was at stake. He said to his viziers, "If the whole kingdom is lost I am ready to lose it, but I cannot be defeated by this beggar."
Diamonds and pearls and emeralds...his treasuries were becoming empty. That begging bowl seemed to be bottomless. Everything that was put into it-everything!-immediately disappeared, went out of existence. Finally it was evening, and the people were standing there in utter silence. The king dropped at the feet of the beggar and admitted his defeat. He said, "Just tell me one thing. You are victorious-but before you leave, just fulfill my curiosity. What is this begging bowl made out of?"
The beggar laughed and said, "It is simply made of human desire."
This understanding transforms life. Go into one desire- what is the mechanism of it? First there is great excitement, great thrill, adventure. You will feel a great kick. Something is going to happen; you are on the verge of it. And then you have the car, you have the yacht, you have the house, you have the woman...and suddenly all is meaningless again.
What happens? Your mind has dematerialized it. The car is standing in the drive, but there is no excitement any more. The excitement was only in getting it...you became so drunk with the desire that you forgot your inner nothingness. Now-the desire fulfilled, the car in the drive, the woman in your bed, the money in your bank account-again excitement disappears. Again the emptiness is there, ready to eat you up. Again you have to create another desire to escape from this yawning abyss.
That's how one goes on moving from one desire to another desire. That's how one remains a beggar. Your whole life proves it again and again-every desire frustrates,. And when the goal is achieved you will need another desire.
The day you understand that desire as such is going to fail comes the turning point in your life.
The other journey is inwards. Move inwards, come back home.
From Zen: The path of Paradox, Vol. 2: Osho neo